Float on

Sorry that my updates are not so frequent... I just kinda ask myself "what's the point?" every time I go to write one, because usually they're all the same. But maybe I should try to start writing daily, even if it is mundane things. After all, I need something to remind me of what I did the day before, and the day before that, etc.

Was pretty cheesed off yesterday because Krys didn't show up and I had to go in at 4 instead of 6. Yes, I DO want more hours, but they just can't expect me to drop everything for them.. Like, really. The stupidity of where I work is starting to make me go insane. GAHHH.

Work with Tanis today.. Don't know if I should be happy or not. I like her, but she's not as fun as Des or Kim to work with. Also, I need to somehow get some cold pills so I don't know how that is going to work out with her there. Ah, well. At least the Lays man (chips!) comes in today. He's pretty cool shit, actually. Always WAY too happy which makes me think that he is on something (I want some too!) but brightens up my day nonetheless.

My dear lovely Jason gave me his cold and I am not too impressed. I hate being sick. I've been trying to finally catch up on Lost and it took me an hour to watch 15 minutes on ctv.ca so I give up, until it is finished downloading on Bit Torrent. All I want to do is watch the last damn episode =[.

They better not call me in early today... I have to make dinner for me and Jason before I go and I was planning on making something really yummy.. Probably pasta and shrimp or Rice, veggies, and shrimp.

Oooh. Oohh. Since Wednesday, I have cut my smoking down to 4 or less cigarettes a day. That's pretty damn good for me.

Bah, I suppose I should go and be a little productive. Might as well do the dishes (again >=/ ) since Jason won't.

Neil Young = Epic WIN.

I don't know if any other concert I go to now can live up to Neil Young.

Amazing. Simply amazing.

Garlic is grown globally, but China is by far the largest producer of garlic, with approximately 10.5 billion kilograms (23 billion pounds) annually, accounting for over 77% of world output. India (4.1%) and South Korea (2%) follow, with Russia (1.6%) in fourth place and the United States (where garlic is grown primarily as a cash crop in every state except for Alaska) in fifth place (1.4%).[2] This leaves 16% of global garlic production in countries that each produce less than 2% of global output. Much of the garlic production in the United States is centered on Gilroy, California, which calls itself the "garlic capital of the world."

Long story short,
My sister OD'd on some various pills (she's alive), broke some windows at my parent's house, stole shit when she 'moved out', and is in the middle of a crack relapse. Same old shit...Just a different day.
the end.

I don't even know where or how to start.

So I won't.

Work has become a joke.

Except... It's not fuckin funny anymore.

Having 3 days off a week was great but they've cut a shift and won't give it back. So I'm working 3 days a week now.

I can pay bills/rent and that's it. Not much spending money after that. It just so happens that next week my days off are all in a row. That will kinda suck but I'm taking my moms dog for those days cause she's awesome.

BAH

I had to remove my acrylic nails because the big bossman came to work last night and reemed me out about them...Now my nails are all damaged and sad. I miss the hot pink tips.

Oddly enough, he made a snarky comment about my eyebrow piercing... Said we weren't allowed to have facial piercings. I was just like O__o. Seriously. 1) I've been working there since late september. ARE YOU STUPID?! 2) I have clear beads on mine. It's very subtle.


sdgbhhjyu miiytyui

If the economy wasn't so bad I'd just quit and look for a new job..Buttttt, there are pretty much no job openings so I can't just leave.

They won't give me more hours, so I'm working 3 days a fuckin week. Next week, I have FOUR DAYS off in a row. Major piss off. Everyone wonder's why I'm broke a lot. BECAUSE I ONLY HAVE ENOUGH MONEY TO PAY BILLS.

I gotta talk to Jason's dad (he's good friends with the bossman) or do something...That jerk is getting hard to handle.



wow this is long...sorry.

N0o, I'm alive. Really.

My computer is a piece of shit (pardon my francais) and I don't have the patience to be on it anymore... Anything I do on here, I can just do on my iphone (facebook,myspace,journals,etc) anyways.

Work is going okay..My boss had a breakdown and is on stress leave for a while...A bunch of us are going to pitch $5 and buy her a huge bouqet of flowers :) She's been difficult to deal with lately but she really doesn't mean to take her problems out on us...And deep down we all know she loves her Green's girls.

Speaking of Green's girls... Got smashed with Laura and Tanis on tuesday night...THAT was fun. 2 shots of passionfruit rum, at least 2 shots of tequila, and about 2 shots of Jack Daniels (doesn't seem like a lot but because I mixed my booze I was hammered). Though, the last shot of JD was Tanis' fault! She made me! Lol. My friend from highschool, nicole, is actually good friends with Tanis so it was good seeing her. She and her boyfriend walked me home. This police officer drove by twice when we were having a smoke and I thought I was going to get busted (had at least an eighth on me) so nicoles boyfriend made me hand him my weed, 'cause he didn't want me getting in trouble.....But it turns out the cops were looking for a guy wearing a black baseball cap and a puffy jacket (thanks for being specific buddy)..Apparently some chick woke up and this random guy was in her room...CREEPY. So I made them walk me home.

It was nice to hang out with people that I haven't met through the boyfriend..


On an unrelated and random note, I might end up getting glasses or some of the funds to get glasses via a "make a wish"-type contest that one of the local radio stations has...Not really sure yet. I sent an email (and then forgot about it) and yesterday one of the DJs replied back asking if I was still wandering around blind and wanted to know where I work...heh.

I'm blank.

I haven't been on my computer in over a week, which is odd. It's either because I have had no will or because my computer is dying and 5 mins of use leads to much frustration. Everything I do on there I can do on my iPhone anyways.

I don't know what to say. I've been in a sort of funk. Not saying much, just taking in everything around me.
Mulling over things in my head while watching TLC and Discovery for hours, not really paying attention to what's on.

Just haven't had much to say... It's weird.

I feel rather good. I pre-cut everything for dinner tonight. I'm making a bad ass stir fry with chicken, lots of yummy&colourful veggies, and honey garlic sauce. Yummmmmm.

I am so sick and tired of all this drama that's going on. Seriously. This is bullshit.

Take me away to somewhere warm and awesome!

Why can't dinosaurs talk?
Because they're all dead.



Anyways. It seems as if I am not allowed to have my own place where I can write my thoughts or whatever. The boyfriend always wants to know what I'm writing and doesn't understand why I don't want to show him. It's not that there's bad things I don't want him to see.. I just need Me space.

Pondering switching names on my journals. Comment on this post if you want to be added to my new journal.

I'm so damn sick of people who are supposed to be my friends acting like immature fucking children. Grow the fuck up already, aletha. You're like 22/23, start acting like it.

I'm so fed up with her and chase. I'm done done done done with them. I'm not wasting my time or energy bending over backwards for aletha just so i can get into her "good graces" when I know for a fact I haven't done anything wrong. And I'm notjust going to not hang out with meagan just because of your (nonexistant)problem with her. I'm better than that. Actually, it has brought us closer.

Sick of people being retarded.

Neil Young is coming to town (it's so unlikely that I never thought it would happen but it did) and although the tickets go on sale Feb.28th, Jason's mom was somehow able to get them today.. $130 for the good seats, but it's going to be sooooo worth it! He's on my bucket list of people to see in concert before I die....Bahaha, so stoked.

Poor hammy. She's a trooper. Gah. I love that hamster.

Baked a cake and brought some to greens for sheila and everyone else. Laura gave me a hug 'cause the cake made her day. I also did the dishes. Again. And laundry. On the agenda for tomorow; sort and put away said laundry, clean room, and finish cleaning the living room&kitchen. Yay. Lol.

How is everyone?

Fought with Jason last night...It started at around 3:30 then we didn't go to bed until 5 because after we were done fighting we talked for 45 mintues. It was kinda retarded because I instigated it..Well, the first one. I got angry 'cause he said that I wouldn't stay with him if he was paralyzed from the waist down (he later told me he said that because I told him if he went on a cruise ship for 6 months I'd breaup with him) which is not true.

Everything he said scares me. It hurt me too. He has had a more priveleged life than I have, and he doesn't understand my reluctancy to go to university. There's nothing in Lethbridge that is worth being in thousands of debt for. Yes, there's scholarships and such, but I've been out of school for two years. He doesn't understand. I'm not native, I'm not meti, I'm not almost completely blind, so I'm not going to get the same kind of funding he does. I told him if I moved to Calgary then I'd get my butt in gear, but there's nothing good enough here. And I know I'm never going to be a photographer because everyone and their grandma is, with all the new photography businesses popping up in Lethbridge so I have to find a Plan B and I don't know what I fucking want to do for the rest of my life. Obviously I don't intend on working my crappy ass job for $9.00/hr for the rest of my life, but that still doesn't mean I have a fucking clue. I'm not good at science or math, I'm not insanely good with people, like seriously. I'm 19, almost 20. I wish I knew what I wanted to do, but I don't. I'm not particularly good at anything.

Oh awesome. He didn't do the dishes like I politely asked (3 or 4 days ago) so now I get to do dishes and make dinner before work. Yay. Nothing like cooking porkchops at 1:30 pm because your boyfriend can't cook. GAWD I am sick of dong the damkn dishes all the damn time.


I've just remembered why I don't come on my computer as much. The stupid piece of shit freezes every so often for about 5 or so seconds even when Kapersky is off. Speaking of Kapersky, stupid piece of shit makes all the pages I go to run super slow. Yes, I turned it off when I go to them (facebook) but what good is a virus protection program if you can't run it all the time because the stupid fucker makes everything slow.

Ugh. I really want a new computer.. I got my Dark Tower series (minus the very last book) and that was about $80 so I reckon that I owe Double Day about $450. Oops. Well, I'll be giving them lots 'o cash on my next payday, 2 weeks away.

Went shopping at Thrift Village with Meagan today. It was a good time. We went to lunch first and gabbed and caught up with each other. I love that girl and I am glad I got to spend time with her. I didn't get a whole lot at the store. Two dresses I'm gonna wear as shirts, a long sleeved shirt, jama pants and some candles.

I want to do a real entry but I'm so tired. We were at meagans and calebs until 4am. I painted a flower for her and it turned out great.

I got The Dark Tower books by Steven king today. Ultra pumped. 'course now I owe Doubleday at least $400 in total. Oops. Now it's back to having no extra cash from now on.

It's funny how when I want to clean, I litterally have no energy. Like right now. There's tons of dishes to do and you almost can't see my desk, bed, and floor because there is crap everywhere. Ohhhh well. I'll get to my room in two days.

Awesome. A scammer emailed me.

My Valentine's day was alright. I got my present the night before since I had to work on V-day. Jason got my some Hershey's Caramel Kisses and some perfume that came with lotion and bodywash. I already have half of a bottle of the perfume, but that's alright. We fought before I went to work and it was my fault because I'm stupid. I just got fed up with the mess and said he didn't help out much. He does help out, not as much as I'd like..But he still makes an effort.

We joined forces today and cleaned the living room and kitchen. He and Brian are watching Platoon right now. Aletha called to see if we wanted to hang out with her and Marty.. I said I didn't know, Jason gave a vague answer as well because he didn't think I wanted to. She might call back but I think I gave her the impression that I didn't want to and she might be a little hurt. I'll just explain myself if she calls back.

I love my friends and all but it seems as if people are here almost every day. I'm either hanging out with people or cleaning on my day(s) off and it feels like I never have any time to myself. I never have time to just veg out and read or play computer games or just hang out with Jason. There's just always people here. It's fine if it's like Brian/Marty/Leon, because I can just go do my own thing in my room and people won't bother me and I don't feel like I have to entertain my "guests". But when its Chase,Aletha,Meagan; separately or the whole group all together, I feel I like have to be there to entertain, and if I'm not, people usually come knocking at my room to see what I'm doing, if I'm mad/glad/sad etc.

Frustrating.